I've been trying to be a little more active lately because I know its good for my health and I'm hoping it will help with my mental health as well. I enjoy walking so I'm trying to go for a nice walk each day. Its hard with Anna because she doesn't appreciate it as much as I do. If I wait until Ron gets home its usually dark and I don't like walking by myself after the sunsets. We live in a really pretty area so its not uncommon to see deer, turkeys, gopers and such. We've even seen a coyote walking down our street! If I'm still walking in the Fall, I'll have to rethink how I'm going to accomplish it each day with the sun rising late and setting so early. I've considered getting a manual treadmill because I hear they are small and easier to store. We'll see if this lasts that long though!

I apologize for the lack of blogs in the past year or so. With my mom's passing away I just didn't have any interest in writing about our lives here in Brewster. Its been a hard 9 months. I'm in a bereavement group at my church and they say grieving is a journey you take. There is no way around it -just through it. It does feel like a journey. I can remember the shock of it in the beginning, it was almost denial. Now it is just this constant hole in my heart, this deep feeling of loss. Sometimes I feel anger. My brother describes it best I think, he says "We've been robbed" and that is how I feel. She was taken from us much too soon. I know she's in heaven though. I'm not quite sure if she can watch over us, sometimes I wonder how she could be in heaven and be happy if she could watch over us and see the sadness and pain we hold in our hearts for her. I've had many signs though that she's in heaven. Signs that make me know without a doubt that she is in heaven and is happy. I know she is waiting for us "by the gate" as we always used to say. I miss you Mom.